Playing with fire 🔥

     People say start fighting fire with fire but, what happened if your fire is burned out. School is starting to get harder but in my case hotter. That’s not the point, has there ever been a thought on how you will live your life? I clearly have thought about it. But it scares me. I try thinking about all the good things but the bad things keep ahowing up. I’m not going to college and I’ve made up my mind but my parents haven’t. I thought things like these were going to be your decision? College scares me as well but not as much as life does. I do sometimes think where I’ll be in 10 years. I’ll be 27 by then but hopefully I could look back and see that I’ve come a long way. Okay I’m kinda excited for my future, I just hope it turns out what I expected, we’ll not all of it but some of it......I’m playing my self by that’s okay. We’ll see if my fire is not all the way burned out when I come back from winter break. Other than that wish me luck.

Sleepless Night

There’s some point in your life, where you want to give up on everything. The things you worked hard on nd the things that you easily can do. But there was a time where maybe everything started getting harder. It started getting harder to focused, getting harder to understand, harder to eat, and harder to sleep. Another point in life is just getting harder in life. My family wants to because the IT FAMILY. But.....I don’t know if I can be the IT GIRL. It crosses my mind, if I would be born in a different family would I have more problems, or would it be solved and I had no care in the world. But nights are getting harder for me, I can’t sleep on time and when I do it just 3 hours. I feel burned out, but I keep going just to see where it will take me. I do hate the nights but I love the stars. So here’s a poem about the sleepless nights I’ve been having.

My Sleepless Night
It get harder to sleep
I can’t believe, I’m trapped again
It’s happening again
Why can’t it leave?
Stop saying please
My mind can’t take it no more
I wanna go home
Please just let me go
You tried killing me
And your there not letting me sleep
Night time are getting worse
I scream for you to leave
Sleepless night can we try
One more time to never die
And survive one more night.