College

       Senior year is about to end, and I still haven’t decided what to do. My parents, teachers and classmates think it’s a good idea to go to college. But I think other wise. April 18 is coming up and that’s when we get to look for our class online. Just think about it gets me nauseous, what do I do? Do I go? Or do I do nothing? To many question but not one answer. I tend to make others think I have it all under control but I don’t. UGGGGGG!!! I just keep saying “I don’t know” “I don’t know.” As a kid I always dreamt of making my parents proud and going to college but I can barely make it to high school. If I keep repeating everything I’m sorry I’m new at this again. I’m confused, I don’t know where to go. I’ve been thinking about working but my sisters say that’s a stupid idea. What do they want from me? They always asked me to work and when I do school has to come first. But what if I don’t want to go to school anymore. What if I gave up my dream just for a job? Maybe I’m just not cut out for anything. Look I’m not trying to make this sad in anyway, but that’s how I feel. Please just tell me what to do. How am I supposed to make it big when I can’t even make it to college, even a classmate of mine asked me if I’m going, I couldn’t answer him quickly all that came out of my mouth was “ mmmmm.” Great just great another person asking me what I want to do when I’m out of high school. You want to know the answer..... I DONT KNOW. How can I explain to you that there’s nothing I would like more than to tell you. ITS FRUSTRATING.

Paul Simon

 In the video I saw with Paul Simon, he talkes about the creativity of music and what’s goes into it. His creation of music is a mixture of culture and sounds, in one of the songs he put together, he seemed to be having fun. Seeing his video made me think about other artists music, on how they add a bit of kick to it or changed sounds. But I really liked how music just like Paul Simon can come to gether to make one incredible and beautiful work of art.

By the pickling of my thumbs, something wicked this way comes

Oh Macbeth how much I’ve hear of you but never got the chance to read you. I’ve hear some lines from Macbeth but never thought of reading, my hopes are to high on this one but I’ll take my chances. 😌

Playing with fire 🔥

     People say start fighting fire with fire but, what happened if your fire is burned out. School is starting to get harder but in my case hotter. That’s not the point, has there ever been a thought on how you will live your life? I clearly have thought about it. But it scares me. I try thinking about all the good things but the bad things keep ahowing up. I’m not going to college and I’ve made up my mind but my parents haven’t. I thought things like these were going to be your decision? College scares me as well but not as much as life does. I do sometimes think where I’ll be in 10 years. I’ll be 27 by then but hopefully I could look back and see that I’ve come a long way. Okay I’m kinda excited for my future, I just hope it turns out what I expected, we’ll not all of it but some of it......I’m playing my self by that’s okay. We’ll see if my fire is not all the way burned out when I come back from winter break. Other than that wish me luck.

Sleepless Night

There’s some point in your life, where you want to give up on everything. The things you worked hard on nd the things that you easily can do. But there was a time where maybe everything started getting harder. It started getting harder to focused, getting harder to understand, harder to eat, and harder to sleep. Another point in life is just getting harder in life. My family wants to because the IT FAMILY. But.....I don’t know if I can be the IT GIRL. It crosses my mind, if I would be born in a different family would I have more problems, or would it be solved and I had no care in the world. But nights are getting harder for me, I can’t sleep on time and when I do it just 3 hours. I feel burned out, but I keep going just to see where it will take me. I do hate the nights but I love the stars. So here’s a poem about the sleepless nights I’ve been having.

My Sleepless Night
It get harder to sleep
I can’t believe, I’m trapped again
It’s happening again
Why can’t it leave?
Stop saying please
My mind can’t take it no more
I wanna go home
Please just let me go
You tried killing me
And your there not letting me sleep
Night time are getting worse
I scream for you to leave
Sleepless night can we try
One more time to never die
And survive one more night.

Just Do It

My new family, I’ve been quite about this since I was a kid...thought probably I was going to be made fun of but, turns out there’s more of me. But with different personalities of course, I listen to kpop which for some people who don’t know its Korean music.😝 I never thought that from becoming a dance teacher to the president was going to be me. I don’t really consider myself as a leader but more of a do it yourself kind of girl. I’m a senior leading 40 students now, there all counting on me to get them out there and do whatever is possible. Our first performance was a success and now from teaching one song as a time, I’m teaching 6 and collaborating with Pioneer Valley kpop club. Probably as well as the Christmas parade. Who know we might become really know in our school, just hopefully in a good way😁😁

https://youtu.be/VkfQpzIZR2Y

Welcome to my blog😝😝

My name I rather not mention it....also because my name is on top of this post. But welcome. How are you?? Anyways...... I won’t be posting a lot but you should get to know me. I do love to make conversation and I am sometimes shy but not for long. I am a senior and I do love makeup 💄. I’m totally broke ☺️ But that’s okay, because I’m rich inside😅. Uhh what else.... oh I make dumb jokes because I don’t know what else to say but I think you know enough. K bye☺️